Chiangの强

Lazybug

曲/詞: 雷贤强
my life don’t have happiness
每天都做一样的东西
everyday will do the same thing
不知道自己存在的目的
don’t know the purpose of self existence
也不知道这个生活的意义
don’t know the meaning of this life

张开眼睛， 已经两点了
open my eye, it’s already 2pm
不知道该做什么
but still don’t know what to do
我没有想过，满脑空空的
i never think about it, my head is empty
就像个四脚蛇在太阳下晒着
just like monitor lizard sunbath under the sun

我想又想
i think and think
不知道该说些什么
i don’t know what to say
如果你问我以后要做什么
but if u ask me what i want to do in future
我只想 goyang kaki!!
i just want goyang kaki!!

如果你叫我读书不是我不要
if u ask me study not i don’t want
只是我现在没心情
just i don’t have the mood right now
如果你叫我去做工赚钱
if u ask me go work and earn some money
我会拼命地找借口来避
i will give alot of excuses

如果你叫我做家务帮妈妈
if u ask me do house chore help mom
我说我有更重要的事
i will say i got more important things to do
现在已经六点了我要骑摩多车
now is already 6pm, i want to ride my motorcycle
转爱大华去看美女！！！
round Ayer Tawar see pretty gal!!

papapapapapapapapapapapa~~ bra~

well, life is getting tighter and tighter. suddenly found out that still alot of thing i hvn’t achieve in this world and so many things undone. do u feel the same too?

There is a pig in my house. It is a fair pig. It eats alot and getting fatter and fatter. Its ass is big and is 90% fat. When it is running, it is like a moving fat lump. @.@~

"Daddy? How did I come into this world?"
「?地，我是??來到這世界的？」

"Well, my child, some day I’ll have to tell you  anyway."
「?，兒子?，總有一天我會讓?知道的。」

"So   not today? Please!"
「拜託！?什?今天不行？」

"OK, but listen carefully."
「好?，?仔細聽著！」

"Mom and Dad met each other in a cyber cafe.
「??和我在網?相遇而認識，

In the restrooms of that cyber cafe,dad connected  to mom.
?在網?的洗手間??和我使用了超連結，

Mom at that time made some downloads from dad’s memory stick.
那時??從我的隨身?硬?下載一些資料，

When dad finished uploading we discovered we used no firewall.
當我完成上傳時，我們發現我們沒有使用防火牆，

Since it was too late to cancel or delete,
因此，想要取消或刪除都已?時太?，

nine months later we ended up with a virus."
就這樣，九個月以後我們被一個病毒所終結。」

This post is to all my National Service friends. It has been a long
time since we leave each other and heading to our own direction. Most
of us are studying, some working… Well, alot of sad and happy memory
we gathered from the camp. From stranger to friends, we meet each other
at the small camp. Stranger to each other at first, but still there’s
some kind of fate between us where God makes us meet at there(Kisana
Beach Resort). We trained, we ran, we marched, we sweat, we tired, we
injured, attended class, we alone, we slept, we bathed, we ate, we
chat, we played and we did everything there, with each other. Life is
never stress there. We just follow orders, food is prepared. I miss
that kind of life!! For almost 3 months. Oh ya, I nearly forget about
the mamak stall outside of our gate, where when the food in the canteen
can’t suit our taste, we go out and buy some nasi goreng and eat.
That’s the best nasi goreng during in the camp. Then, I still remember
that that’s our Kisana cultural where we will buy toilet paper to our
friends on their birthday. Toilet paper can be said the precious item
in Kisana cause the toilet paper provided by the Kisana staff is
practically not enough for us to use. However, I don’t have any chance
to get any of this toilet paper since my birthday is on Sept. What a
sad thing!! When we were in camp, we were isolated from outside world.
I still remembered the Tsunami and the black out of KL, didn’t get any
attention from us, majority. Life after Kisana is also fun. We get to
know each other, we meet outside camp, get to know the news from our
friends, where they go, what they do, all that. I just hope we don’t
lose contact and keep on contact each other. Even though I can’t know
all of the camp members there, but we are in one camp, we are last time
once before.

我的心如水上的小船，
不知道该去那儿，
不知道该向那儿，
飘来飘去，就是看不到路，
很怕，到底是不是这边？
我对吗？ 到底谁对？
你? 我？他?  还是里面的我？
到底是看不到事实？ 还是猜不到事实？
如果天是蓝的，为什么云是白的呢？
是天在骗我，还是眼睛在说谎？
但是我的心还是说天是蓝的。

Is it life is better without choice? Once you got choices, you can’t
decide easily because you will keep on choosing and delay the decide
process. But when there aren’t choices, your heart no more chaos like
last time. This is because the way you have to go is only one and you
are looking forward to the road. The choice. Sometimes, human can’t
have choice. Once they have it, they will keep on searching for the
easiest way to get out of this problem and always find excuse to
themselves. But when they don’t have choice, they have to go through
the problem, in order to survive. So, they will only think of the way
to get through it. Once they get through it, they will become stronger
than before. The feeling of losing choice is like the feeling of losing
something to depend on. You will suddenly feel the need to depend on
yourself and the need to face it by yourself. You get to know that if
you don’t do it, you will lose or disappear in the battle of life.

Well, there is a time where we will start to change from childhood to adulthood. Of course there isn’t anyone who dare to say that they are really adult or child cause there is always a mixture of characteristic in one person. The prob is which side are u lean to? Even an adult can act like child and even a child can think like an adult. Well, i heard this from long time ago, if u want to check which side u are lean to, try to ask yourself this question. "Which question you ask yourself more? How to spend money or how to earn money?" They said child will always think how to spend money, what to buy and always keep on waiting for something new to get. However adult, will always think of how to earn money. But… if it is so easy, adult and child can be easily differentiate. But the truth isn’t. Even a money-earning adult can act like child too. The real truth is the purpose u earn the money. Is it for fun? Is it for pocket money? Is it for something u want to get? Ok… let’s stop talking about working. Well… when u are entering adulthood, u will always hoping to go back to childhood. Means time to spend on yourself is decreasing. Most of your time is spend on others… or other things… So, if u got time now, better play and kick your ass off…Otherwise, don’t complain later don’t hv time to play… haha.. i going to play until i feel the ‘end’ in this Sunday!! hahaha~

Sometimes ppl say u are brilliant, sometimes ppl say u are stupid. U never know what will come out next until other tell u what u are…Y wait for other to tell u who u are? Look straight. Confident is within you. Trust is power. Power is everything. Look deep into yourself. U will find yourself. Everybody borned to be genius. But it is ppl themselves who look they ownselves stupid. Don’t… don’t be so foolish. Set a road and go. That’s the most important thing. Set a road and go now. If wrong, then only come back and set again and go. Start again and go. Start again and go. Start again and go. Repeat repeat repeat… until u feel yourself. Feel the inner u. Feel it. As u control it when u feel it. Control it as your wish. Move it. Indulge it. Feed it. Find your own taste. And find your own "place". Your kingdom. Your palace. Your empire. Allow them to appear themselves. Don’t force it but let it. Don’t summon it but freed it. Don’t let it hide inside for where it always be. Something worth outside is hiding. The mineral which we didn’t utilise called stone. Even though it is "looks like gold". Your day is your decision. Bright day is when u open your heart and hand. Bright day is when u follow your subconciousness. Bright day is when u indulge your spirit. Bright day is when u follow your heart but under guidance of your mind. And of course, bright day is when u no longer anymore care about anything and u listen nothing, only your own breathing. In and out. Feeling mean u are control everything. And everything means your life. Oh, how wonderful life is…

When I was small, I always imagine what I will doing when I grow up. It is very fun to imagine what u want to do and u are just like doing it in reality. However, now I already grew up and looks like I never successfully done most of the thing I want to do when I was small.

But start from today, I will retrieve all the things I want to do in the past and bring it to the present!! U all will see it!!